tak bermaksud menyakiti

maaf ,. kuga bermaksud menyakiti tapi apa daya,. ku ga mw serakah,.,. mosok poliandri?? huh,. >,< ,. bersama mu tetap akan ku kenang sLaLu,.,. bersama mu menjadi kenangan yang tak kan terlupakan .,

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ Feelings Of Abandonment ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

I keep looking for comfort from you
I sit and wonder if your love is true
You see me crying
Inside you have to know I'm dying

Don't you see these tears
Don't you see the hurt from so many years
The little girl that was hurt so bad
Is now 22 years old and utterly sad
No one to listen or even to talk to
Recalling memories that hurt me through and through
The things you ask of me
It triggers a memory

Memories I'd rather forget
Memories embedded in my mind, completely set
The hurt, the pain and anger won't go away
I wonder who "loves me" and will turn their back today
I can't explain how I feel inside
Feelings of abandonment rush in like the tide
Ghosts haunt me no matter where I go

I do love you still, that you should know
I wish you could understand
I would be there holding your hand
I would take away all your pain
So in the end, you'd have a life to gain
But for me, darkness is all I see

No happiness for this little girl is to be
The adult lives her life
Taking on happiness, sorrow and strife

I hope someday you'll understand
Someday I hope you'll be here to comfort me and hold my hand
Until that day all I feel is punishment
Along with those never-ending feelings of abandonment

capek di balik kesuksesan

yah,., muup bgd de kalo baru hari ni nulis dsini,. kmarin senin bner2 nyita tnaga bagd,.
yah,., show time,.
performance drama d mulai hr itu,.,
uda dtng dari pagi masi dkerjain ank2 suruh nyari daon n snack ,., hawane BETE,,
capek,. masi dmntain tolong makasa pula,,. jan,.jan,. akhirnya kepancing emosi gt,.
maklum masi ABG TK(anak baru gede tapi kedean) jadinya masi labil gt emosinya,.
sempet marah-marah gt ma sobat.,. ya trus akhirna kt nyadrin ksalahan masing2,.
saat yang dnanti2 tiba ,. pertunjaukkan dmulai,,. semuanya "ambyar" huft,., gara2 first performance yang molor ampe 1 jam lebih ,. tnaga pikiran make up kt da pada lunturrr,.,
yah wlw terjadi little-little mistake,. ya lumayan lah bwd pemula,., hhehehe.,, yang jelas kelas &A emang top markoTOP,,.,. JOOOsSSS

malming

wwedewww.,., dari pagi aktivitas padat banged,.,
mulai dari jam 7 musti ngajar anak kelas 1 yang bawelnya setengah matii,.
abis itu move on 4th grade nyang bikin ngelus dada,.,
pulang masi harus k acara tmend nyokap nyang abis naek haji.,
istirahat benta jam 12 bwd ol lah,.,
eeheeehh,., niat mw nganter sUpit(si motor sUprA Fit) ke bengkel bwd ganti lampu kaca depan nyang pecah gara2 parkir d kampus ,., n mandiin tuh sUpit seX2,.aaarrgghghh,,. ujan tiba dengan derasnya,.,
sangat derassss,.,., sial rugi dah,., g sampai dstu aj penderitaan ku,., eh,., masi musti latian drama juga ampe mlm,., jan2 wlw nyebelin taapi ju2r Fun banged,,. sampe rumah ol lago da,., n ngantukk,. abizzz

ngebosenin

kemarin waktu taun baru 2010 aku putus ma pacar ,., yah uda 5 taunan gt aqw uda sabar akhirnya "broke up" huhuhh,,... nangis aku,.,
tapi dia masih sering maen ke rumah gitu,, apa daya rasa ini ,., kalau uda dsakiti ya uda,., mati rasa de, nyang ada cuma rasa iba ,., cinta??? au' gelap,.

4 d'first time,..

mu'up katrok ndeso, baru bikin blog ni,..
hehehehe,.. masih untung mw belajar,., kalo da yang mw bagi info ,..
tulung,. tulung,.,.,!!! namanya juga baru belajar ya yang pasi tulisannya ngga jelas gitu,.,.